today...

So today was fun, i talked with Lauren a lot of the day online while i sat in the garden on my ibook...so now i can be a geek and get a tan at the same time!

I've been waiting like 3 days on this download of iWeb so i can possibly do something fancy with this blog and port it over to .Mac and see how that is, i only have trial version but if it's cool i'll definitely buy a membership, infact i'll make it a whole website with a blog. what will i make the website on?! what will it all be based on? it'd be a bit egocentric to make the whole website about me ...and write the biggest pile of pretentious crap ever derived from a 16 year old brain.

So now it has all turned to thunder and lightening and yeah, it's loud. People say it gives them headaches but i always wonder, how? why? i don't understand it.

FLIES!!!!!

there are too many flies in my room!!!! it's doing my head in!!!! GAH!!!!!

So....

So i honestly can't think of something to say, i'm a bit bored tonight. Really could go to bed now which would be a first instead of the usual between 4am and 8am...It's a bit too crazy.

So i wanna buy some new shoes just so i have a selection, so i think i'll buy those classic slip on brown shoes...they're cool, and go well with jeans (most of the time) i need some new t-shirts too, check out Busted Tees they have some pretty interesting shirts, they're funny so i'll probably buy one or two from there and then when i'm in spain i'll spend a WEE bit on some clothes there.

I'm too bored, i really can't think of anything constructive to say. i'll maybe post back later.

Dublin...

So tomorrow (now today) i'm hopefully going to Dublin, Naomi is going to pick up jude, the only reason i'm going is cause we're making a day out of it shopping and i need new jeans...i have one pair right now, they're all ripped and hippie like and as much as i love them, it's kind of hard wearing them for 2 months straight without them smelling so i'm hopefully gonna buy a new pair, and hopefully a new beanie too, the one i have gets worn too much, i need a selection.

So i tried to fix my sleeping pattern as best i could, i staye dup all night the other day burning 5 copies of a .dmg file that doesn't even boot. I know what i've done wrong now, so i'll need to buy more DVD's...so the sleeping pattern was back to normal for 1 night, and now it's 2am, but i have an early start in the morning (8am) so i can fix it again there :) it'll all be grand.

So i thought i should be kind and point out my sisters blog check it out, she rambles quite a bit but it's good reading. I've probably learned more about her reading her blog than i have ever trying to figure out what's going on inside her head by just talking with her, she's a mad...but still my sister. so check it out!

Summer...

Everything really is so beautiful and inspirational, like how some flowers close up and droop during the night and as it gets brighter, things open up...like it's a new born nebula in bloom *steals incubus lyric*

Nothing compares to seeing the sun rise in the morning, nothing compares to waking up each day thinking "Thank you God, for giving me such a wonderful world to live in". We are human magic markers, we can paint what ever pictures we like *steals more incubus lyrics*

Watching the sun beem through the leaves on the trees with a bright blue background is awesome, i usually end up lying in til about 4pm...so after a long night trying to pirate some software to a bootable dvd (fricken windows *spits*) it didn't work...and so i decided i would stay up and fix my sleeping pattern for once.

Times like these i'm happy, when i feel emotional enough to sympathise with pretty much anyone, to feel happy, to feel loved and to love. Don't ever let life pass you by.

Plans....

Plans for life is something each and every one of us have. I'm not talking about when someone says "aw what do you wanna do after 5th year??" i mean..God has a plan for all of us, no matter how or what we do, we can't escape it, it's just the way we will live our lives. Things will happen to teach us lessons for the future...these things of course may not make any sense at the time, or may seem like the greatest thing since sliced bread, but we may not know the true meaning of why it happened until later on.

We all have our dreams for life and well didn't God give us all of those dreams?? maybe the ones that seem like non-sense are the most logical, but take a little thinking to get your head around. Sometimes i've found dreams that have made no sense to me at a particular time...but sooner than later i begin to realise "hang on a minute, that meant something"

Has anyone ever heard of lucid dreaming? it's a technique where you are able to actively control your dreams through a slight state of consciousness...or awareness of the ability to think while you're asleep. It seems interesting, but almost interrupts the dreams we're given from God....but then again if God has a particular dream for us in store, he'll not let us use this "technique" and broadcast his dream instead.

On the more dreamy side of things...where we dream of or think of thinks we would like to do with our lives, or dream of them, i think they are also gifts from God, they are part of the plan laid out for us...it's our target to reach for and we must achieve that goal in order to fulfill our dream. Currently i have a dream in mind, things all became so clear when recently Stephen mentioned a job to me...since then it's been on my mind a lot, but the more i think about it the more beneficial i begin to realise it may be for me and others (hopefully) and how i could learn from it. It's one of the first stepping stones of my dream. It is a sheer gift.

That's what i'm trying to say :-)

Well Italy have won for the fourth time after beating France 5-3 on penalties after a 1-1 draw.

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Hormones...

They're such a strange thing, some days i can wake up and feel like the wisest most sane person on this earth. Then other days i can wake up and feel like the biggest, angriest dick head to ever walk the face of the earth. The latter is what i hate most, i hate waking up making everyone elses life a living hell...when the day before i've been as nice as i can to people.

There's nothing i can do about any of this and i know if you're reading you're probably thinking "stupid kid!" ...well i'm not one of the kids who thinks no one understands, i know plenty of people understand me, it's just the fact that all of this can't be helped at least for a while yet, i'm stuck waking up being a different person every day, it feels like i'm schizophrenic or something.

This isn't something i can escape, i just have to quit whining like a moody teenager and get on with my life. So until then...i'm on the search for a job, well...sort of. I'm currently holding off due to a possible offer that popped up recently...and well...i'm highly interested in it, it's an opportunity i feel i can't let pass me by, i'm just not sure if it's a definite thing right now, so i can only hope for the best.

So i'm learning....

Just while i was in the kitchen there i realised to myself how easy it is for people to make money these days. I've been concentrating on a few websites recently about Macs and Apple and the traffic to my site is growing more and more every day, of course this is dependant on the Apple News and such, which has some very interesting material these days.

So while i was making my soup in the kitchen...i realised how easy it can be for people to make some money on the web. Set up a blog, make a Google Ads Account, throw some ads on there...put up some interesting content and post a story or article from your blog on Digg.com or in a Forum, people come to your site, click an ad...you get money. All of this for free and in the comfort of your arm chair with your iBook on your lap.

The world is beginning to revolve around computers, just like it did with TV, which reminds me a lot of a song by Incubus...Idiot Box...and i leave you with a few words from the chorus.

"TV what do I need?
Tell me who to believe...
What's the use of autonomy when a button does it all?"




Don't let the media control you.