People.............

Is it just me, or does it seem like people are becoming more selfish? Do people ever think that it might hurt someone else before they say or do a certain thing? Am i being selfish? am i thinking that maybe i deserve more respect than what i get? i'd say that's more likely the case rather than people being "not nice". I try to treat others as i'd like to be treated myself...but i guess it doesn't work that way anymore.

So anyway...i had an english exam today, kinda made a hash of it i think but i'm still pretty confident that i passed. I've always had a doubt in the back of my mind that i might fail somehow...but i sat with one of my best mates ben, in the foodcourt in a local shopping centre and he basically put things into a much clearer perspective for me. Out of the 10 or 11 exams, i only need to pass 6 in order to get back to school and i have a pretty good idea what ones will be B's and what will be C's. So i guess that kinda helped to put my mind at rest.

Off tomorrow...and for w/e reason Lauren has decided not to meet me tomorrow :( (she's meeting friends or somethin) so i guess i'll stay in bed all day or revise a bit and then record some more stuff. I managed to play around with some things in GarageBand and think i got the first part pretty well sorted. I dunno how the overall thing will turn out but we'll have to see over time.

as the days roll by...........................

well the days are rolling in pretty quick, i've got more exams past than i have left, which is really hard to believe and so far they've all gone according to plan, still in the hope that i might get back to school, i really, really want to get back.

So i've probably bored you all (if any) half to death more than twice now...so yeah, i'll probably just ramble away again. I'm pretty tired so none of this is gonna make much sense.

I haven't recorded much yet, i've got a 30 second clip that i made for the scratching (dj stuff) at the start of Just a Phase, i'm still trying to work out some timing on the guitar, i'll maybe have to use a metronome in order to keep the right timing.

So it's like 3am...and i'm sitting here writing on my blog when i should probably be in bed, I've had a lot on my mind, but i know that with help from God, he will help me through all of these issues...if others would even consider them issues. Basically i feel like everyone may be changing and i'm staying the same, now some may consider change to be a good thing, but i have memories with how things used to be...i feel that if things change too much the memories will be lost or it'll at least be a lot harder to remember them. I have a lot of turmoil in my life right now, and like i'm not gonna act emo and bitch about it, i'll just have to get along with it and find myself a back door, a way to vent, a way to rid myself of all the frustration...right now music seems to be that back door, hence why i'm recording a song, and it really means a lot to me, i have a lot of memories with that song, just listening to it, and it kind of sums up life in all aspects when ever you think about it, it's all "Just a Phase" and "now my only consolation is that this could not last forever" ...i'm hanging on to that line right now, then again, i don't know what ever put it in my head that the era before now would last forever.

As i type this, i realise it's probably my most constructive (maybe deeper is a better word) post to date, even though i'm just rambling, i don't consider myself to be happy right now. So it's time for me to go to bed, i need sleep, i sometimes wonder is it my lack of sleep that causes my problems...even though i know it's my temper.

me.............

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Late Nights...........

Well since i got a few days off (4 days) and dont have an exam until tuesday, i decided i may as well start trying to record this track tonight...i really am confident i can make this quite a masterpiece...i plan to buy a new mic as well for vocals! this could turn out to be quite the masterpiece...i'll keep everyone posted on how it's going! later

tomorrow.....

Well for the first time in about 3 weeks i have a full school day tomorrow...Starting out at 9:15am i have my RE exam and then a 2 and a half hour break or something crazy like that, then business studies (i'm going to try and revise on my break) and then i'm going to do my ICT exam after school starting at 3:15 i think. I often find that every year, no matter how hard i try i always manage to fail RE...it just seems to complicated to me, i can never think when i'm in the exam.

So after all that i can relax for the weekend until tuesday which is cool, cause it's english...something i consider myself to be pretty good at. Anyway...enough about exams. Whilst i was trying to revise tonite i decided to hook up my wireless speakers with my pedal board etc. and was playing around with one of my favourite songs by incubus called "Just a Phase" the more i played with my pedal board the more i was able to produce an accurate sound, and what reminded me of all this was my cousin stephens comment he left...he ALWAYS inspires me to push myself harder, i mean he doesn't directly say to me "PLAY MORE!!!" but any time i speak to him, i'm reminded of the first song i ever heard him play on the guitar..."sweet home alabama" and i remember how precisely he played it and even though i can play it too, i'll never forget it, it really inspired me to play guitar more and more.

So tonite i was playing this song over and over and for once i actually enjoyed the sound i was producing. So i got this idea...i'm going to maybe hook it all up to my ibook later and layer a few tracks (some with effects, some purely clean guitar) just as the song is...and then get my mate (ben) to record the drums for it, and we'll mash it all together and then add a vocal track to it...of course there are other instruments involved, i think i have tracks for those somewhere so i mite add them in and stuff...that'd be interesting. I'll let y'all know how it works out.

More Spanish....

Ok, so tomorrow...or today, i have 2 exams, both of them being spanish, tbh i'm not too worried about them, i'm confident that i'll do OK so yeah...s'all good. Just wanna get Friday over and done with, i know that's a kind of crazy way to live life...wishing for the time to pass quicker to please yourself, kind of selfish when ya think about it. How many of us live life this way? do we all wish for the end of the day to arrive? to we wish the days were longer? well...somewhere there is a clock ticking...i tend to ignore that clock. Anyhow...i really should be revising more, instead i woke up today at 2pm and strolled in to town around 3:30 to meet my girlfriend and then head back to her house (it was her birthday) and i was feeling generous this year...so i bought her one of these ...For a while she's been upset that her last iPod (shuffle) stopped working, so i thought i'd at least fill the void left with the death of the shuffle.

So i guess today was a good day, i had a nice time with Lauren and when i came home i came online as usual...then i logged on to a message board i enjoy posting on to find a podcast update from my favourite band...Incubus! I got all excited as usual and had a nice listen...and now i'm realising i should probably be in bed or else i'm gonna lie in and miss my exam or something stupid like that.

Furthermore i've been discovering how much more interesting blogging is rather than using something like Myspace or Bebo...i've come to hate BOTH of those now. Blogging is cool...so cool that i'm gonna look for a dashboard widget or something that will save me from coming on here when i wanna make a post or i believe there is some random programme released with iLife 06, maybe i should buy that. Hmmmm...i'll make an update if i find anything of use.

Something else...........

Ok...well i found this pretty cool app for my iBook, it’s called MacJournal..it also allows me post on to this...except i have to buy it if i want to continue to use it after my 15 day trial...so i think i’ll just stick to my widget.

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So i promised and update and i found this widget so i actually don't have to visit the site and log in and all that lark in order to view my post...i just hit F8 on my keyboard and start typing...that's pretty darn cool huh?

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Another one down.......

So i got another exam over and done with. I think i've done alrite, i don't have any exams until thursday so i can have a lie in tomorrow. After friday all will be good, less exams and more free time, well....there's really just a higher free time to exam time ratio. So anyway...enough about exams. I wanna talk about the new mac book.



So i've had my ibook about 3 years now, since then Apple have moved on quite a bit! They've released many a new product and did a revision of their existing products! Aside from the iPod, the biggest thing Apple have probably accomplished was the transition between PowerPC and Intel...and low and behold a year(ish) after the announcement Apple land one of these in the hands of consumers. So what's new? Well there's now an Intel Chip which is apparently up to 5 times faster or something mad like that! A new 13" screen...a webcam...and well...that's really it apart from a few cosmetic differences with the iBook G4. So for someone like myself, is this an advantage to me? Well i only use my iBook for surfing the web, msn messenger, itunes and watching a dvd the odd time. So when these were released i got so excited i cried...but then i thought more about it, do i really need this extra speed? Do i really need a webcam? and a screen that's an inch bigger? Well to be perfectly honest...my iBook runs efficiently enough barr the slight loading time on everything due to my 256mb of RAM...i plan to upgrade, and then things will be efficient enough for another year or so. I'll wait til the next release of OS X before i SERIOUSLY consider buying one of these ;-) although one is allowed to dream.

Spanish...

Well the exam went...ok i guess...to begin with, when i left y'all i inteded to go to my bed early, but nope, i sat up until about 4am futuring about and then when i finally did get to sleep it was no time until i had to get back up again, it sucked, oh well. so i think i did ok, i managed to mess up one question cause i couldn't make out the tape so i guessed like 5 of the answers to that question (i'm talking about my spanish listening btw)

So after the exam we (Peter, Ben and Myself) went to my ICT teacher to get some help with past paper questions in preparation for the exam, i'm confident enough that i'll do well and get a good grade in ICT...i only lost 7 marks out of 60 on my coursework and the teacher told me if i get something like 60% on my exam i'll have got an A or something crazy like that. i don't really understand how that works, but i'm just taking his word for it cause it might be a good glimpse of hope for me.

So later on this week (particularly friday) i have RE, ANOTHER ICT exam and Business Studies, oh what a day? i'm dreading it all already, RE and ICT will be ok i guess...but business studies, i don't have a clue about that subject, i really don't. The year has been hard for me in it, it's so......boring. oh well, after friday half of my exams are over, and then they spread out more and i even have 2 weeks of nothing so i can relax some days and revise others, even thought i'll probably revise every day because i REALLY need to, I wanna get back to school, but i just never have enough confidence in myself, BUT i have a backup plan...tech.

Exam time again...........

Exams have rolled around again...last time i posted on here it was my mocks...and low and behold, well now it's my actual GCSE's. Firstly tomorrow i have some spanish at like 9:15am for 35 minutes, then i think i'll hang around school and have a chat with some of the teachers and see if i can scrounge some past papers off of them in order to help with the revision. Past papers are always a good way to practice.

I've never been that good with revision, i always procrastinate and find new ways to distract myself. I was talking to a very good friend of mine called Chris who lives in NZ, he was helping me out the other night and told me that if you pick out the questions that no one else is going to pick out and work on them and learn the answer for that kind of question perfectly, you can pick up the marks a lot better, because the examiners will be looking for something different and something that no one else will have been able to answer.

I'm dreading this exam tomorrow...GAH!